The Balm before the Yawn

We didn't get much sleep last night. Humid. Uncomfortable balminess. Then I had to come to work earlier than usual to get some exams going. Yawn. Being on my bike was good, though. It's surprisingly quieter riding at 7.30am than it is at 8.30am, and the sun is sitting at an angle just so, and the air is somehow fresher. So I appreicated that, at least. Then a bit later I ate a muffin.

Pretty riveting stuff, peeps!

Anyway, I've not moved on much on the Project. Been doing band stuff instead. Played a gig on Saturday which was a bit awesome, and had some photos taken last night. I need to start writing some more, and dig out some old stuff.

I digress. I contacted some people. On the internet. Some of them wrote back. Exciting! Some of them didn't. Hmm. I've changed direction on the postcards. I was making photo collages but now I just feel like that's a bit weird. I'm going back to my original idea - which was actually Karen's original idea - of using one photo, of the person and I together (wherever possible). Then jazz it up. I'm thinking crayons.

I should just knuckle down with it and bang a few out, and send them, rather than trying to create a grand gesture by sending them all at once. That will probably be my first downfall, right there. The trick is not to run out of time. And who knows when, or if, some of these postcards will even reach their destinations? Hmm.

I haven't even got to 29 yet. I'm just sitting on 26 and hoping to be inspired. Wondering where to draw the line.

This heat makes me tired.

Twenty-nine

I've been thinking about these 29 people for the last few days. The original idea started as my best friends, or past best friends - people that knew me the best. Then it began to get tricky. Now, however, the project has skewed. This is going to take a year of my life, and purposefully, wholeheartedly, change it. Maybe I should be thinking of people that have done that in the past. Give them a chance to do it again.

So I thought of certain school teachers. I thought of old boyfriends. I thought of employers. I thought of my old piano teacher. I even thought of bands I listened to.

I quickly decided this is to be a positive endeavour. So to reflect that, I don't want to waste it on people that have affected me negatively. Maybe that's a copout - if you're going to measure your life on change, surely you should recognise both? - but I feel like its just a waste of energy. Those people had their time in the sun. Besides, I wouldn't want to give any of them the satisfaction.

Needless to say, my list is looking pretty interesting. I'm not sure I'll track everyone down, and I'm not even convinced that even if I do, they will respond. But that's all part of the game, isn't it?